Well it's been a long time comin'...

I feel like the stranglehold has been lifted. I have never stopped playing guitar, but sometimes I don't connect it away from rehearsal/stage. It's been hard to play at home the last year or so. There's a few reasons.

Main one- I really do hate my job, THAT much. For those who haven't done it or worked there, it's hard to explain. It numbs me to the point of apathy in my whole life. It sucks. Tonight I was watching the "Crossroads" festival with Stacy...Normally not her cup of tea exactly, but she enjoyed watching it with me and finally opened up with: "Hmm, wow, Jonny lang is sexy." I approve of this. Then it dawned on me that she sees me this way too. I guess that was enough, I opened up. I can't wait to play tomorrow.

haven't written in years, this may be rough

Hold the lines
while delve into the waters
of humility and trust.
Wading in the waters
that have not yet been troubled,
I step on the stones
that have been tiptoed before.
There is a freedom in the imperfections
and the struggle of riverbed.
Slowing down the river now,
bruising my feet in my journey,
I find not a soul to be shaken,
not a weight to be lifted,
only a slap to the gifted,
saying awake from your slumber.

Rise and Rise again until lambs become lions

I've fallen down many times living in Nashville. Nothing embodies the struggle of life and how I feel about my journey better than that quote. Rise and rise again until lambs become lions. I've had my heart broken many times in different facets of my life. That seems to be a thing all the past. I've been kicked in the face basically any angle you look at it.

Maybe it's true what my mom always said about me. I was the happiest, most full of joy boy in the world. Maybe that disposition has kept me going all this time. Or maybe I just watched "Rudy" too many times and was too stubborn to go home.

I'm not going to hide from it anymore. My next battle is with my weight. I don't plan on losing this one either.

Rise and Rise again until lambs become lions.